I have been meditating on the story of Cain lately. It is one of my favorite stories to ponder. What was wrong with Cain’s sacrifice in Gen 4? It would appear that he brought the Lord the result of his best work, he was a gardener, and he brought vegetables. What is interesting is that the Lord does not say why it was not pleasing to Him, but instead offered a warning to Cain: “you are going to respond sinfully to my rejection, but you have the ability to change your heart; to deal with the sin at a heart-level rather than let it grow to the point that it affected his behavior.”
We can deduce from Cain’s later behavior that it was likely a heart-attitude that did not please the Lord. We also know, in hindsight, that a living sacrifice was a foreshadowing of the Christ; and God demonstrates earlier in chapter 3 that the death of the lambs was in direct relation to the first couple’s prideful sin of eating the forbidden fruit. Cain’s attitude appears to be one of hurt pride, hurt that what he considered his best work was not what the Lord desired from him. But God is all-powerful, and when it is not us in the hot-seat it is easy to see that God not only has the authority to command us, but has our best interest in mind and most often he has a better plan for us than we have. Cain, in the moment, could not see all of human history, but God could, and his actions flowed out of divine will and perspective. Bottom Line: Cain refuses to surrender his heart to God.
As a person who has chosen to serve God, it is a very hard thing to except that I may be in a situation where I bring to God what I believe to be my very best, and he may not accept it. He has no compunction to accept what I bring, just because I brought it; he is the most high God. I am a finite being that, even on my best days, fails and has to be forgiven. Yet by the definition of true, 100% submission I have no right to be offended if he chooses not to accept what I bring. If I have the right heart-attitude, I will look at what I have done and ask God “Then what must I do to make it pleasing to you? How must I adjust to come in line with what You desire.”
Here is the reality: I must continue to meditate on this in order for God to bring it to pass in my heart. I do not find it easy to be rejected. I do not find it easy to have persons, or deities disagree with me. But, I need to change. I need to become worthy of my God. I need God to change me, because, without his power changing my life, I am just another person grasping at good-living.